So this is me swallowing my pride, Standing in front of you,
Saying I'm sorry for that night.
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Friday, June 25, 2010 // 4:56 AM
Everything's changing.
Everyone is. Everyone in my freaking life is.
I'm not sure to the better or to the worse. It looks like to the better, but then I wondered, then why the crap do I feel horrible and worse than ever ?
I've never actually felt this pissed off, well I have- I think. But I'm don't quite remember how it felt like.
but don't worry, the song has nothing to do with what I'm feeling right now. I just felt like listening to songs like this and I thought, why not, since I'm updating my post right ?
I'm a freako.
School started like a couple days ago, and guess what, I never felt better than ever. (I do hope you noticed my sarcasm) I'm different now I think and I bet my classmates noticed it too, (I know you guys are reading this but I'm just saying, right?) I've been a lot quieter than before. I guess I can't find anything interesting to be excited about during the whole day. The day keeps dragging and dragging and nothing is basically changing, wait, I meant, everything is changing, everyone... and me.
I've changed ?
I don't think I have.
Everything around me is changing, not me.
or am I changing and blaming everything around me ?
I don't see any difference about me.
I couldn't accept the fact that I'm changing so I'm saying everything else is changing, is it ?
I think, I think too much.
I think, I think I know I changed, because I couldn't stand my empty life.
I have an empty life ? that's like lifeless right ?
But I love my life, my family, my friends.
Do I really ?
Of course right.
Then, what's empty ?
My life, I have nothing to be excited about.
But I have my family and friends around me. They are everything I want, right ?
I think, I think too much.
I think, I think I do love my family and friends but there's something missing.
What is ?
Something to be happy about.
My family and friends make me happy right ?
Of course, they're just and all that I want.
So what's the conclusion ?
= I think too much and is having a massive headache, that's what I get for being such a good person, I don't stand up for myself, because I'm weak. Am I ? Right Now, I just don't know, who I really am, how it's gonna be, is there something that I can't see ? Maybe I will never be who I was before, cause maybe I don't even know her anymore.
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I actually planned to tell you about the good things that happened today, like watching Life Unexpected, it's the movie I chose to watch on my Weekend Movie Marathon this week but now I just don't know. Is life really unexpected ? I meant, mine's not. It's still the same.
I'll just have to enjoy the movie and feel jealous of that fifteen years old girl named Lux because she has awesome people around her almost all the time, basically all the time.
No offence, people around me are cool too, it's just, nevermind.
changes.
Friday, June 25, 2010 // 4:56 AM
Everything's changing.
Everyone is. Everyone in my freaking life is.
I'm not sure to the better or to the worse. It looks like to the better, but then I wondered, then why the crap do I feel horrible and worse than ever ?
I've never actually felt this pissed off, well I have- I think. But I'm don't quite remember how it felt like.
but don't worry, the song has nothing to do with what I'm feeling right now. I just felt like listening to songs like this and I thought, why not, since I'm updating my post right ?
I'm a freako.
School started like a couple days ago, and guess what, I never felt better than ever. (I do hope you noticed my sarcasm) I'm different now I think and I bet my classmates noticed it too, (I know you guys are reading this but I'm just saying, right?) I've been a lot quieter than before. I guess I can't find anything interesting to be excited about during the whole day. The day keeps dragging and dragging and nothing is basically changing, wait, I meant, everything is changing, everyone... and me.
I've changed ?
I don't think I have.
Everything around me is changing, not me.
or am I changing and blaming everything around me ?
I don't see any difference about me.
I couldn't accept the fact that I'm changing so I'm saying everything else is changing, is it ?
I think, I think too much.
I think, I think I know I changed, because I couldn't stand my empty life.
I have an empty life ? that's like lifeless right ?
But I love my life, my family, my friends.
Do I really ?
Of course right.
Then, what's empty ?
My life, I have nothing to be excited about.
But I have my family and friends around me. They are everything I want, right ?
I think, I think too much.
I think, I think I do love my family and friends but there's something missing.
What is ?
Something to be happy about.
My family and friends make me happy right ?
Of course, they're just and all that I want.
So what's the conclusion ?
= I think too much and is having a massive headache, that's what I get for being such a good person, I don't stand up for myself, because I'm weak. Am I ? Right Now, I just don't know, who I really am, how it's gonna be, is there something that I can't see ? Maybe I will never be who I was before, cause maybe I don't even know her anymore.
----
I actually planned to tell you about the good things that happened today, like watching Life Unexpected, it's the movie I chose to watch on my Weekend Movie Marathon this week but now I just don't know. Is life really unexpected ? I meant, mine's not. It's still the same.
I'll just have to enjoy the movie and feel jealous of that fifteen years old girl named Lux because she has awesome people around her almost all the time, basically all the time.
No offence, people around me are cool too, it's just, nevermind.
I watched you laughing from the passenger side,
Realized that I loved you in the fall.
Sfyyh. 13. Awesome. A little left of center.
Spreads my imagination and thoughts through inks and sheets.
Trying to be a better person,
